Well I wasn't lying. I just didn’t say when I would post. Don’t get me wrong, I thought about posting all the time. I even had ideas of what to write... but I just never got around to doing it. Now I can’t remember any of those ideas! Bummer.
I think the hard part is I don’t really know who I’m writing this to or for. Is it for anyone to read? for myself? For someone to find when they google “med school wife”? ect. So I guess I will just ramble! Lucky you.
Here is a little catch up:
The husband started classes and is now in his 2nd month of school. Starting out this whole process of my husband going to med school wasn’t half as bad as I thought it would be! Honestly! In terms of our marriage it really hasnt changed anything at all.
I remember feeling excited about him starting & genuinely looking forward to it and then thinking "am I naive or missing something here?" .. Because all everyone else was telling me was how hard it would be and there I was not that worried.
Of course I had my days when I would let fear, anxiety, and my imagination get the best of me and would start to worry about things like:
What if we grow apart?
What if I’m not interesting to him anymore since I don’t know medical stuff?
What if I never see my husband again because he studies all the time?
What if I am miserable?
What if he is miserable?
And if I’m being honest: what if there is some cute smart single girl in his class that happens to think he is cute?
Those are just a few examples of thoughts I had when I thought about what everyone else told me & didn’t acknowledge what I knew to be true. The peace I had was really because the Lord planned this out for us - not because I was naive!
I will say that I don’t think anyone is wrong for warning me or saying all those things to me - things like: "yikes - med school - that’s going to be so hard. I’m so sorry yall have to go through that" "oh my parents were married when my dad was in med school and my mom was miserable" or even the "my only advice is never let your guard down"
WHAT? It’s my husband - pretty sure it is okay to let my guard down with him!
But I don’t blame them. They don’t know what it feels like to be the one in the situation. They are only trying to help. And its okay to know what other people think or have experienced. Its good to have perspective.
I will say this though.. so far (my 1 month in) it hasn’t been bad at all. My time with Freeland hasn’t changed. I very much feel a part of his med school life. (even though I don’t understand half of the vocabulary he uses now) and I actually really enjoy this season we have entered.
The things that have been an adjustment & hard at times really just have to deal with us moving to an entirely new side of the country.. not with med school. Thats another subject for another time though.
Just wanted share how I felt like all the warnings and fear that other people share with you isn’t always the case. Not that it’s a piece of cake .. but that’s life. More later.