I'm No Superman

Is it totally rediculous that I get emotional during the theme song of Scrubs? Probably, since it is a sitcom. I started to write this post on my own blog but to be honest I am embarrassed for my own readers to critical of me and know how much I struggle with being a partner to a doctor. I am realizing that I watch the show Scrubs almost every day because I miss my husband, and somehow getting to know the characters makes me feel closer to him and feel like I am a part of his residency experience. Its pathetic that sometimes I am even watching it when he is home, but to be honest I don't feel like he is truly home because if he were I would not feel so alone. I am trying to get involved in activities so I can meet people and fill this gap where my relationship with my spouse should be. I smile and say hi, but my eyes are still frowning. Right about now someone it thinking "Wow this girl needs some couple's therapy!" Well, that would be nice but my spouse really does not have the time, energy, or desire to work on our relationship right now. So that really only leaves me with one choice, I decide accept the marriage I have right now and accept if I want there to be anything left of this relationship by the time this crazy medical journey is over I need to step up and take on more than 50% of the work it takes to keep it together. I may not be Superman, but I'm going to have to try to do this all on my own.

Book Recommendation

Even though I haven't finished this book, I wanted to recommend it. "Prescription for the Doctor's Wife" by Debby Read has been SUCH an encouragement to me. My husband is an MS2 and I am the stay-at-home mom of our an almost 3-year-old daughter and almost 1-year-old son, so it is often lonely, difficult, and exhausting doing most of the day to day parenting (as well as the household stuff) on my own. I really appreciate Debby's candidness, having been there and really understanding in a way that only those who have been there truly can, without giving in to the strong desire to feel sorry for oneself.

As I said, I've not finished the book yet, but I just couldn't wait to recommend it to you all who are in the same boat. I've been reading (and re-reading) a few pages at night almost like a devotional. I'll just leave you with only one of the few points that have really stuck with me... I am accountable only to God for my actions, independent of my circumstances. This is just what I need to hear, because well-meaning friends and family often tend to feel sorry for me in our current stage in life. Although in the world's view, I would be justified in being mad or resentful toward my husband for the long hours of thankless work that I put in when say he is up late watching youtube videos after studying instead of spending quality time with me :), but God asks me to be joyful in ALL situations. It is wonderful reminder when I am trying to teach our children to be joyful in all things (even when someone doesn't share with them etc.), but it is hard for me to live out personally. I know they are watching and it is ultimately for my Father that I am laboring for when I serve my husband and children and He is the supplier of my strength and grace for the day.

I don't think you can get this book on Amazon or an e-reader, but the author does have a website. Let me know if you end up enjoying reading or have read this book as well.

http://www.prescriptionforthedoctorswife.com